Masks

Today has been good, okay, irritating, frustrating, annoying, confusing, nice and I don't even know.

My heart is heavy and hurting.

God for the past week has secretly been placing the word "masks" in random places in my life.  I had not thought much of it until wednesday night at CVC's ONE NIGHT.  I was not planning on attending ONE NIGHT but for whatever reason girls kept asking me if I was going... so I went.  I walked into the church and there wasn't really anywhere to sit... which was a good thing because it was packed full of students!  Anyways, I find a pew to sit in.  Panda texts me and asks me if it worth it to come because her class got done early and I was like yes SO worth it.  So she came.  The speaker went up onto the stage and spoke for a while then he played a video... one that I has seen before.  The "MASKS" video that Paradigm had made.

So the whole 2 times I have seen this video it has pulled on my heart strings a little.

But wait a second... there came that word again "masks".  What the hay God?!?  What are you trying to tell me here?

Well Erica... you have masks and quite a few I might add.  I know what they all are but you do not... I will reveal them to you in my perfect timing.

Oh okay God that sounds wonderful.

Masks revealed that night: The Mask of Pride & The Mask of Selfishness.

The speaker then gave an alter call.  I felt the need to recommit my life to Jesus Christ.  I like that God is faithful because he knew that my pride alone would not go up there... that is why Panda's class got done really early.  I knew I could humble myself and ask her to come up with me.

Week by week I am becoming more and more transparent to my friends, family and the world.

Yet another post that was written and not finished... enjoy